Angry and Sorry

Today I feel like getting out of the house, getting out of this family. I always feel that I m lucky to have such sweet family. But I feels different today. I m tired of my parents' style. They keep on blaming others for their unhappiness. They do not listen to my advices. I tried to consult them but I failed. Things changed and now I feel hard to communicate with them as we are in different area. I feel gloomy while my mom complain the same things to me again and agian, moreover she don't accept my advice. God, I am sorry. I know I should not behave in this way to my family. I m sorry for not patient enough. I am sorry for not caring enough. I am sorry for not loving enough. I am sorry..... But I can't control myself. Please forgive me......

Let it go

One thing that I am very sure about is, my dad is the best dad in the world. No one can even replace him. I am thankful and lucky enough to be his daughter. If i have next life, I wish to be his daughter again. My dad knows how to be a good dad but he does not know how to live happily. My dad has a working partner. What I can describe about his partner is, Superstition, Gossiper and Ridiculous. He does not attend any funeral as he worry that the dead will turn into a ghost and hunt him. Beside that, he rejected any foods or gifts given by people as he afraid that its contain black magic. Sometimes he will chat with God (He believe he is) and sometimes he will fight with the ghost and get "them" out from someone or somewhere. He even can predict my dad is going to blind after two years. His ignorance is driving my dad crazy. My dad get very angry and upset about him. My dad was not longer happy. Everyday my dad is thinking about what he had said and even trying to take revenge on him. My dad was losing his patient over him. We trying to pursue dad do not listen to his words but dad seems like holding it too tight and can't let it go. Dad, I just want to let you know that everyone responsible for their own happiness, no one can take it away unless they allowed to. Please just let it go and do not hold on to something that we cannot control. Let it go...