Lost

I had quit my job. I m planning to further my study in Singapore. I hope to expose to new things over there. But the fees is too expensive. It cost S$50,000. So it is around RM100,000. Where am i suppose to get such a lot of money? I don't know what to do. My heart asks me to have a try but my mind tell me that I am not afford to. What should I do now? Going to back to USM and study over there? But i am bored with the life over there. I had spent 4 years studying my degree there. I don't feel like going back. I keep asking myself what should i do? What should I do? I m stress. I m trying to avoid it by not thinking about it. This is the way to make me feel better but not the way to solve it. I really have no ideas. I m lost....