Packing

Today, I have started to pack all my belonging. I realize that time pass by very fast. I have stay here for almost one year. I still remember the day when i was packing to Ipoh and now i m packing back to Taiping. I came here alone without any friends. But i am lucky to have my aunt here. She treat me well as her daughter. I m so comfortable staying with her. Thus, I m great to have many good colleagues over here. I will going to miss everyone over here. I miss those "crazy" time we have together. I miss the Malacca trip + Ipoh Trip. Although it is just a simple budget trip but i really enjoy every moment we have together. Thank God for giving me such a wonderful memories here. I hope that i will come back one day. Ipoh is such a wonderful place to live in. It remind me of one phases : Everything arise, everything fall away". I was coming and now I m leaving.

Lost

I had quit my job. I m planning to further my study in Singapore. I hope to expose to new things over there. But the fees is too expensive. It cost S$50,000. So it is around RM100,000. Where am i suppose to get such a lot of money? I don't know what to do. My heart asks me to have a try but my mind tell me that I am not afford to. What should I do now? Going to back to USM and study over there? But i am bored with the life over there. I had spent 4 years studying my degree there. I don't feel like going back. I keep asking myself what should i do? What should I do? I m stress. I m trying to avoid it by not thinking about it. This is the way to make me feel better but not the way to solve it. I really have no ideas. I m lost....

God bless the broken road

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

Her hair and her pain

Today i visited some Ipoh temples with my colleagues. We anjoyed the trip. We have lunch with salads and ice-cream together. Wah... it was awesome. After that, we plan to go shopping. On the way, i saw one of my colleague's car (who does not join us on the trip). So i call her and then she join us for the shopping. i was surprised to see her with her short hair. I asked her why and her answer is, she want to cut off all her misery. Something happend between her and her boyfriend. They broke up. I can feel the pain from her, it is very hurt. I hope that soon her pain will fade away. All the best my friend...

My view, their's view

"We like to keep what is pleasant and reject what is unpleasant but it is impossible to get rid of everything unpleasant and to keep everything that's pleasant." I like this phases, it remind me of what have happened just now. Some of my friends do not agree that i quit my job. they think i should not give up such a good job and if i give up, sure my new job will going to be worse. I m unhappy for they had told me. Why can't they be more supportive? Why can't they be more positive? Why can't they accept my decision without putting in theirs judgment? These are what inside my mind when i get to know theirs view. But i was wrong. I should not feel angry and unhappy for their opinions. Everyone have their own view and idea for something. We can't force everyone to agree and support us. Human are ego, we like everything to move in the way we want, but if something go against us, we feel angry and trying to blame others for what had happend. That's why we suffer with unhappiness and unsatisfactoriness. I m glad i m able to realize my mistake. Today,i learn something in my life. Seeing everything in RIGHT VIEW....